There has been quite a lot in the news recently about pupils and staff coming back to school. This is a difficult decision for everyone and we will continue to take on board all the advice that we receive. We came across this blog today from a fellow teacher called Adam Boxer, who we thought encapsulates how a lot of us feel and thought we would share this with you today – we haven’t repeated it in its entirety, but you can read the full article here.
I love working and I know that I signed myself up for a career that isn’t easy even in the best of times. But I’m struggling now because it’s hard, and these times fall far deeper into the “worst of times” end of the spectrum. It’s hard to balance all those different jobs, to be a teacher in two schools, a head of department in one, a father and a husband at home – all at the same time, six days and six evenings a week. When school is on I can take hats on and off with ease, and I’m not burdened by the crushing guilt each day that I’m not being a good enough dad to my daughter. There’s a reason I chose to teach in secondary, and I love her to pieces but it’s a simple fact that I can’t provide the education or social interactions that she got at her childminder. My head knows that I’m doing a good job, but my heart aches for her – for the friends she doesn’t see or no longer remembers, for her grandparents she can’t hug, for the strangers she refuses to wave to like she used to. I know she’ll be fine, but it’s hard. And in among that, competing for legroom in my emotional energy reserves, is the nagging guilt that that I’m letting my own students down. I know there isn’t much more I could be doing, but that doesn’t really help. The feeling is still there, the certainty that for my toughest students – the ones that worked so hard to catch up with their peers – for them I’m not doing enough, and the gap will widen.
So I want to go back to school. Because when school is on I know I’m really good at my job. I’m organised at work, I can get stuff done and I can do what I love doing – teach students – and I can do it well. And then I can get home and I don’t need to worry about whether my girl is getting a good deal during the day, and I can be a good dad and husband and help out doing all the things that need doing.
The problem is, just because I want something, doesn’t mean it’s the right thing to do. We live in more complicated times than that, and however much I wish the virus was all gone and finished and cleared up and over and into the green and into Covid Alert Level 1 – it isn’t. And the question of when we go back is not answered by assessing how much I want to go back. If it were, we would have been back six weeks ago.
Applying this to Christ the King. Everyone in the community feeling safe, being safe and staying safe underpins everything that we are trying to achieve during this difficult period – things will get back to normal, things will get better and we will start to function again, hopefully in an even better way, than they did before. A quote I saw recently said this; “Life has many chapters, one bad one doesn’t mean it’s the end of the book”. To put it another way – keep going, because whilst things are hard at the moment, it does not mean that they will always remain so – those simple pleasures we used to take for granted will return again one day soon.
Today’s daily challenge is Read about the Crown Jewels and the history of this unique collection:
Stay safe and be kind
Mr Alexander and Mr Usher